[JULY 2022.]
At the zendo a visiting priest from a sangha in northern Germany: “Anger is an imperial emotion. It does not allow anything else beside her.”
Her eyes are that glass green. Imagining the Baltic Sea, the North, the gray in Dutch paintings, early evenings, the price of Russian gas. Could we ever live over there, really? I just submitted a marriage certificate to get J. on file with my ancestral home, where I now have a national identification number. I haven’t tried to fix my name or gender with them yet.
Writing more this month, turning up soil.
The priest, who is also an oncologist and palliative care provider, quotes what she says is a Korean koan. Is it? The tiger fears the human heart, the human fears the tiger’s kindness.