problems with bigger problems
Well, coming to Nevada and working my ass off was an excellent way to deep-freeze my heart for a while. Going back to Oregon, the days are getting longer and it will have to thaw. It's going to be unpleasant.
This morning I had to drive to Carson City for fun and games with the Nevada Supreme Court, and on the highway it occurred to me that this essential pattern has repeated enough times that it's probably something I do entirely to myself. The various women involved might have been necessary to catalyze the reaction, but it's such an insular drama that once it gets underway they're pretty much out of the picture. To crib from Eliot, the filament of platinum induces the formation of sulphurous acid, but has no connection to the resulting compound. Or as I might put it, sourly: it's but the infrastructure of desire. Once construction is finished, you take away the scaffolding. Though demolition might be a better analogy.