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Guess what onerous project is starting again? The new reading list:

Mesoamerican Mythology: A Guide to the Gods, Heroes, Rituals, and Beliefs of Mexico and Central America
Precolumbian America: Myths and Legends
The Mayan Languages—A Comparative Vocabulary
Time and the Highland Maya
Time Among the Maya
The Chixoy Dam and the Massacres at Río Negro, Agua Fría and Los Encuentros: A Report on Multilateral Financial Institution Accountability
Handbook of Applied Hydraulics
Optimal Long-Term Operation of Electric Power Systems
Transnational Capitalism and Hydropolitics in Argentina: the Yacyreta High Dam
El Sistema Electrico Nacional de Guatemala
Secrets of the Talking Jaguar: A Mayan Shaman's Journey to the Heart of the Indigenous Soul
Long Life, Honey in the Heart: A Story of Initiation and Eloquence from the Shores of a Mayan Lake
The Story of Big Creek
Unfinished Conquest: the Guatemalan Tragedy
Son of Tecún Umán: A Maya Indian Tells His Life Story
Campesino: the Diary of a Guatemalan Indian
Ignacio: the Diary of a Maya Indian of Guatemala
On Formally Undecidable Propositions of Principia Mathematica and Related Systems
Philosophy of Mathematics: Selected Readings
A Beautiful Mind (I know, I know. But I have to see what she did.)
Guatemalan Journey
Days in the Jungle: the Testimony of a Guatemalan Guerrillero

I don't even know how to articulate that dry, scraped-from-the-inside feeling you have after a day of research. Any fact you encounter could lead you in five different directions, probably all bad ones. It's hard to avoid the sense that you're running in circles. I bought little color-coded report covers to organize all the documents I've been downloading from the web—it's something, but not enough.

I need to begin writing again, even if it's all wrong, even if it all has to be redone once I've finished the reading, and redone again after I go to Guatemala. But I'm very afraid of this book. I've tried to write it three or four times, and each time it's derailed horribly. I hope I've gotten smarter since then. On the edge of a precipice. Blinding lantern. No idea what's down there.

 

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